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Im prob a bad bf i mean i never really see Jess alot other then 1st period and mabey 3 days or 2 depending on if its an A,B,C day other then that its just church and i cant really hold her there or hold her hand without the older people saying there haveing sex and its weird because they think just because im a guy im trying to get with her when thats not true did it ever occure to anyone i like her more then that?and then thats about it oh there was her concert thursday i went to but i only saw her for mabey an hour or so then today but thats because of youth group and we didnt even say one word to eachother so i really feel like a bad boyfriend and its hurts thinking or knowing im am ... she may think im not but theres still that fragment in my mind that thinks i am and its killing me because i hate it. Even you know who saw her more then me when they were going out and i havent talked to her today and chances are im not going to because she's not on and i dont think she's going to id call her at 9 but idk if she's doing something because last i heard she left her friends at her house so ya thats my delema.................. oh and theres the whole everyone wanting me to do football again i know its all because u want me to be happy and active but i quit for a reason and trust me if i had my way id join again but sometimes theres just that part of u that says ive had enough school footballs not my thing it was both my uncles and they wore me down so bad till my ancles gave out and after that i could never run my fastest without then hurting like hell its not fair but whatever my problem im not going through that preasure again and its alot easier to type it then to say it in person so ya ok now thats about it for now


-chris